I'm very pensive this Memorial Day when I think about my life, my friends' lives, the world around me, and all of the veterans who have died to protect my freedom.
I've had a very low-key day. Bella and I just spent the entire day together and I got a preview of what is to come when summer is here full-time and I have no school breaks to help me keep my sanity. As much as I wish it were possible, I am not a Stay at Home Mom and don't get to plan trips to the zoo, play dates, park afternoons, and just playing and having fun. I have to figure out how I am going to balance work with being a mom to a very active 2 year old ALL DAY LONG. I know people do it all the time but I truy think Bella has the energy of ten regular kids. She's now getting to the age where I don't have to be watching her every second but, as you parents, know, it only takes a second for disaster to happen (heard about Mike Tyson's daughter?).
I am looking forward to going to the beach in Mississippi for a couple of weeks since my aunt got a cabin. It will be very hard to be there without my dad because he loved vacations like this where the hardest thing is waking up and deciding to eat hot dogs or hamburgers for lunch. He was such a simple person in a very complicated body. I feel like I miss him more now than two years ago when he died if that is even possible. My dad always was on my side, regardless if I was right or wrong. I really don't have anyone in my life who fills that role so I feel sort of alone in this world even though I have people who love me.
Tomorrow is Bella's last day of school and I was assigned as a face-painter. Word got around that I was artistic but they will soon realize my skills are limited to a mouse and computer screen. I can't draw at all! Years ago I learned to draw a tree making a series of v shapes and that is about my extent. Hopefully the toddlers won't mind.
I am looking forward to going to the beach in Mississippi for a couple of weeks since my aunt got a cabin. It will be very hard to be there without my dad because he loved vacations like this where the hardest thing is waking up and deciding to eat hot dogs or hamburgers for lunch. He was such a simple person in a very complicated body. I feel like I miss him more now than two years ago when he died if that is even possible. My dad always was on my side, regardless if I was right or wrong. I really don't have anyone in my life who fills that role so I feel sort of alone in this world even though I have people who love me.
Tomorrow is Bella's last day of school and I was assigned as a face-painter. Word got around that I was artistic but they will soon realize my skills are limited to a mouse and computer screen. I can't draw at all! Years ago I learned to draw a tree making a series of v shapes and that is about my extent. Hopefully the toddlers won't mind.
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